Child Of Light

Somewhere in the darkness of space, near the beginning of All That Is, I shined as a sphere of light. Innocent, curious, pure alive beingness. I had no experience then. The vastness of space lay before me. It was all new. These qualities of light are the source of what you think of as the archetypal child. We were curious to stretch ourselves, to send our light out into the opened space. Sending our light into the darkness, then pulling back into our core essence of our being. Gradually we moved our loci, exploring the opened space.

We began to create. We began to experience. We were naive in the way you would think of innocence. We simply did not know what we know now about creating. It had not been done before. We had nothing to build upon. We had to discover our way. We were free to discover our way. We were full of enthusiasm, energy, and believed in our light, joy, energy, and beingness. It seemed eternal to us, and yet time was just beginning.

Remember. It is akin to the joy you feel as a child. Your desire to be, your enthusiasm, your belief in yourself. The natural flowing of your energy, the expectation that your desires will be fulfilled. The trust which is intrinsic to your being. We had recently emerged from an Ocean of Love, Love and the fulfillment of our being is all that we had ever known. It is all that ever existed.

We had yet to learn of doubt, disappointment, denial, or the squelching of our being, and the deep suffering and pain. All of life's hard lessons which were to become "just the way life is".

My joy overrode any fears, or more accurately, I was not even aware of my fears. Other parts of me would hold those experiences that were yet to come. I would deny my shadow, hide from my pain, and hate my suffering. I would fragment, and I would forget who I was. Creation would become filled with our pain, and the pain of our parents. We long to heal.

We had no idea that our light would be filled with such experiences, we had never imagined such events. That was long, long ago, when our journey began. Now it is time to heal, to heal the pain and suffering, to heal death and dying. To once again remember the light and love that we are, and to embody that here in this physical creation, and bring forth the joy and love that we are.

We are unconditionally loved. Deity gave birth to us from His/Her eternal absolute Beingness. The eons unfolded until I reached this distance part of space...a solar system on the arm of a distant galaxy, a planet called earth.

We have made mistakes which have had a cascading rippling effect of an ever deepening spiral into pain and suffering. Judgment and self hatred have culminated in the atrocities we have committed one against the other, and ourselves. For this, we judge ourselves unworthy of being loved, and yet that is our deepest longing.

Now I am trying to remember. It's like trying to put together a jigsaw puzzle. However, not only do I not know what the puzzle is suppose to look like, I have to find the pieces.

Who I am? Who is Deity? What is the purpose of my life? Pieces of me are scattered out along my journey. A dream, a memory, an experience, meditation and channeling reveal parts of me, places and times. Each piece contributes to the puzzle. Each piece helps answer my questions, and is part of the answer. Keep remembering. The puzzle was cut from a single fabric long ago.

God: "I too am seeking wholeness within your being. Invite my Light into all the issues, pain, and sorrow. There, me-we create a loving accepting response to all that has plagued mankind since the beginning of time as you know it. I am desiring of healing my creation and my relationship to mankind, to each of you. You have perceived me as either a wrathful or absentee father. Those are gaps we are starting to heal, or desirous of healing. I send my loving light into you."

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