Access Channeling Newsletter

Volume Six, Number Four

Winter 2005

Personal - Transpersonal Counseling

By Raymond Wolf

Who is God?

Who are you?

And what is your relationship?

I use Voice Dialogue, belief work, and Esoteric Wisdom

to make connections from the many parts

of our waking consciousness to our soul,

to become a fuller conscious being...

aware of our Human/Divine Nature.

Who is God?

From the God Channel:

"Before my own separate existence, there was no separation between Spirit and Will (God/Father and God/Mother). Before there was any kind of duality... there was only one whole being. All Will essence was completely and ecstatically filled with Loving Light, so there was only Heart, the presence of our union... complete and whole Heart. There were no separations, no distinctions, no fragments, and therefore no manifestation. Love was all, and all was Love. There was one... and only one, and it was Love and Love only. There was nothing else, not even the Void.

"The polar essences of Original Heart connected everywhere, creating the presence of Love everywhere, with no limit. In reality, Original Heart was not two essences in union... but rather one, undifferentiated, whole Love Presence that neither began nor ended... until the original explosion that spawned manifestation.

"So then, what happened? And why? Original Heart was its own whole being with no unmet needs, no desire not instantly fulfilled, no longing not immediately satisfied... and nothing to disturb this state of ecstatic Love. What could cause this to blow up? What could possibly have gone wrong?

"The answer is that nothing went wrong, really. It was that the Love of Original Heart found something missing in its experience. Love is of course its own celebration, its own completion and fulfillment. Love needs nothing else, and desires only more Love. Original Heart had all the Love it desired, but for one thing. Heart had no one else with whom to share this Love. Heart was alone.

"Everything that can be done or experienced by one whole being was done and experienced. Every feeling that can be felt was felt. Every thought was thought. Everything needing completion was completed, taken back and completed again in a different way... until every possible configuration of Self was explored. All preferences were explored until no one way of being seemed any better than another way of being. It was all Love, and only Love. And whenever Heart became completely aware of itself as One, it realized it was alone... the one and only One.

"For what would have been eons, had there been time... Heart played 'hide and seek' with itself, purposely forgetting its wholeness and pretending it was several, many separate 'virtual' beings interacting with each other. Heart explored all the possibilities there, but each time the pretend, virtual parts began waking up enough to realize their wholeness, one of them would remember who they really were... and quickly bring Heart back again to wholeness and to full awareness of Self... back to fully realizing its oneness... and its aloneness.

"Heart woke up fully to itself for the last time when it knew that it no longer wished to continue without another to share its Love. By this time Heart's Love was so great that it demanded a new 'game'. Hide and seek was no longer fulfilling or even satisfying. And all this Love without another like itself had become a burden too great to bear. Heart realized in its desire for true, peer level companionship, the only way to find another Heart... required that it somehow split itself apart, creating two distinct beings that could never reconstitute themselves back into the one, Original Heart. Never, that is... until there would be a way for Heart to have a companion who was just as whole, and yet truly separate and distinct, not just a part of Self.

"But then Heart did something that Love alone would never permit. Heart moved to hurt itself. Heart asked its Spirit essence to expand too quickly and forcefully, while moving its Will essence to suddenly contract around it. The Will imploded and came back on herself trying to contain the exploding Spirit. The result was the complete and utter fragmentation of Original Heart. This had happened before when beginning the old game, but never with this much intensity... and this time there was a new element in the mix.

"Heart used Love to destroy itself, and thus create the conditions necessary for duality and manifested existence. Heart knew that sometime much later... multiple forms would each reconstitute themselves... and find Heart again. And this time there would be more than one whole being. This time Heart would be completely whole... and there would be others with whom Love could be wholly shared.

"Manifested existence has come at a very high price. Form was not necessary for Love, yet Love demanded it.

"Seven Creations later the untold suffering of the seemingly endless reenactments caused by our Original Heart's Self-inflicted wound has reverberated down to this present moment on Earth. The Mother has had to bear the awful price of manifestation on her own, and I'm very serious about the pain, suffering and death stopping now, and here in this Creation.

"Here, very soon, and for the first time ever... Form is to become the container of New Heart... Spirit and Will in wholly complete union, without guilt, blame or denial. Original Heart is beginning to re-member itself again... as New Heart, now in Body... and looking out through human eyes, moist with Original Love. And yes, beginning now to see... that there is indeed... another."

end of channeling

Who Are You?

By Vywamus in Prelude to Ascension by Janet McClure:

“The Source gave you a gift; it was your unlimitedness, your creativity. The Source then divided Itself up and said, “I want to do this because it’s fun, because I’ll enjoy it, because I get to share.” These are the reasons for doing it. But as far as you were concerned, before you were individualized you were in the womb of Source, and you could stretch out and feel here - the feeling is the key here - and you could feel here and feel here. You were just floating; nothing was required of you, and it was nice and comfortable. And the Source said, “Its time to wake up. I’ve individualized you.” And many of you said, “Who, me? No, I’m sleepy. I want to sleep this morning. I’m not ready to wake up.”

“Well, whether or not you were ready, it was time to wake up. Now, that’s a fact. The first thing you experienced was a sense of individual movement, and because you hadn’t experienced on an individual basis, it seemed to be taking you out of something. You didn’t have the experience you had had before. You were now a being. There was a change, a comprehensive change.

“And then we look at our circle (Oneness) and we see that it’s been divided up. There were seemingly some barriers. In other words, “I stretch here and that’s as far as my individuality goes. What do you mean, I’m just a piece here? Before, I could feel this whole thing. Now there’s only my individuality. What does that mean?”

“Many of you formed some beliefs about that: Did I do something wrong? Why am I here? Why am I limited? Why am I just a piece, if before I was the whole thing? You see, the emotional body gets caught up in the process and might not see the purpose of the process. For some of you that’s very important.

“Others said, “Oh well, there must be a purpose,” and you began to look. And what you saw was literally the purpose. First of all, the Source said, “Look, look. Here’s what your are going to grow up to be. Looks just like me, doesn’t it?” And you said, “Good, good. When?” And the Source said, “When you are ready.” But the next words you didn’t necessarily hear. Those next words were, “I’ll give you a process in which to do it. I’ll give you what is called a cocreator plan.” And you might have said, “Oh, there are others? There are others?” And the Sources said, “Look around you. There are others. And this that I gave you is the whole plan.”

“Many of you said, “I want all of that now!” And again the voice said, “When you are ready, when you are ready.” And you said, “but I’m ready now.” And the Source said, “All right, then begin.” And you started your journey.”

end of channeling

(Note: The above gets a bit ahead of our story, but I like to keep the channelings intact.)

In the most basic fundamental sense, you are a spark of Deity. You are an individualized aspect of Source, created in Her/His likeness. That level of your beingness could be called your Divine I Am Presence.

Using the model of the monad, souls, and your waking I consciousness, the monadic level is related to your Divine I Am Presence, at least as far as I know. The monad creates or projects aspects of itself outward to individualize as souls. Souls then project aspects of themselves into physical reality which is the familiar I. Within our waking persona, I, there are many subpersonalities. They are aspects of us which we have given birth to. These four categories: subpersonalities, waking I, soul, and monad are just four aspects of “individuation from Source”, but its enough to take us a long ways in our understanding and experiencing of ourselves.

Using our galaxy as an example: our monad would be equated with the divine consciousness that gives birth to a galaxy, and is at the center/heart of the galaxy. Our soul level would be our local sun, and our waking I is the earth. Our subpersonalities could be equated with the individuals upon the planet.

As your waking I consciousness expands, it becomes ever more aware of its multidimensional individualized/collective divine nature. At your soul level, you are aware of the thousands of lives you have lived upon the planet. At your monadic level, you are aware of your many souls throughout this quadrant of the galaxy, and perhaps beyond.

To use the analogy of a painting, we could equate our subpersonalities with the people in a painting. Our waking I, is the painter of that picture, this life. Our soul level could encompass a roomful of paintings by different artist, and the monadic level is a whole museum. Deity is the paint, the canvas, the painter, and all the museums imaginable.

This process of involution; the One individualizing as the many, and evolution; the many returning to their divinity individualized, is repeated throughout creation on many levels. Through this process we create, we experience, and we evolve. Through what is called the Supreme Being, the collective consciousness of all universes, Deity creates, experiences, and evolves.

In one way, who we are appears to be very simple... we are the I that we constantly experience ourselves as. When we deepen into that, and feel all that our I is comprised of, it is rather amazing. We have emotions, thoughts, awareness, and subpersonalities for starters. We have the subconscious, conscious, and superconscious. If our experience takes into account our transpersonal self, then we may remember past lives and begin to experience ourselves as souls. We may even have glimpses of our Divine I Am, and experience ourselves as radiant spheres of light and love.

What is our Relationship

By Djwhal Klul in Prelude to Ascension by Janet McClure:

"By “allowing” each point of consciousness within His consciousness, the Creator can expand infinitely. Each particular point of consciousness, by going within to its point of origin, reaches the realization that its source, its reality, is Divinity Itself. As divinity, each of us has the freedom of expression, the freedom to be creative and to expand into the greatness which we can perceive from this original focus point.

“The Cosmic Plan, my friends, is evolution! All that exist strives to become greater, for that is the will of the Creator Itself! Recognize, then, the urges to become greater as coming from the will of the Creator - the will to move forward, to become greater and to express in a greater and greater manner.

“The fullness of the creator is unlimited, my friends. Is this not an exciting prospect! The Creator is complete. The Creator is allness and wholeness. Yet the principle itself must govern all that is, and therefore All That Is is ever-expanding. Let your mind move into this concept, and let this concept itself expand the consciousness.”

end of channelings.

There is so much understood in the above channelings. The words, “You are made in God’s image” take on a new and profound meaning. The destiny of your individualization on the path of evolution is to become a co-creator. You are a child of Source growing up. You are That, and through Source’s gift of individuation, you will eventually be an unlimited source, a co-creator. Through this process, Deity gets a friend. Truly amazing.

By Vywamus in Prelude to Ascension by Janet McClure

“What the journey is all about is figuring out “Who am I in relationship to the One that created me? And the gift that He/She/It gave me is unlimited expression. Why don’t I express unlimitedly yet, and have I failed because I haven’t? How do I get in touch with it?”

“You see, you might not have understood at that point, that it was an eternal journey. It seemed like just a step or two. You could say that your emotional body kept checking and said, “When will I be that which I have been promised? When will I be in the Wholeness again?” When will I go back to that Wholeness?” Well, you never went out of it! But you didn't understand that this great gift was an eternal one that will keep stretching you. It will keep enlarging you.

“Now, there is a time when you will recognize yourself as that Wholeness - the same as the Source Itself. What happens then? I don’t know. But what I am sure of is that that will not be the end. Because we know, my friends, that there are levels of Sourceness, and one thing that I help people to understand is that our Source is always merging into another level of Sourceness and enlarging Itself.”

end of channeling

There seems to be an insurmountable distance between how we experience ourselves here and now, quite limited, and this promised future divine unlimited potential. This is the work that humanity is currently involved in. By whatever means we address the issues, mankind... men and women are trying to learn to integrate their power and vulnerabilities, their beliefs and creativity, their desires and joys, in relationship to themselves, to their fellow men and women, and to Source.

The overall encompassing term I use for this process is healing. Heal thyself. The overall hidden theme we are trying to heal is our relationship with Source. Within that relationship are many hidden beliefs and buried emotions. Those core beliefs and emotions have taken myriads of twists and turns and have manifested in numerous ways throughout our many lives. Where we are not living the current potential of our beingness, these areas represent our issues. Physical reality offers us the means to see our issues and transform them. This is one of the potential gifts of physical reality and all our relationships.

Some major areas of our healing include: our beliefs, the relationship between power and vulnerability, and healing for our emotional body. Following this dance of beliefs, emotions, and experience from the personal, to how it is projected outward, and how it manifest on the inner planes, is a tapestry of such complexity and amazement, and so bewildering, that it seems unbelievable. And this maze is totally unique for each of us, because it is created by each of us.

However, once you begin to sense and experience some of these connections it is incredibly rewarding. For you are healing, and are taking steps toward being Whole again. You are living the plan, and you are adding your unique divine consciousness to the Oneness.

The use of Voice Dialogue, Beliefs, Esoteric Wisdom

Voice Dialogue:

Voice Dialogue is the name Hal and Sidra Stone have given to their work. I use Voice Dialogue to discover and give voice to the many subpersonalities we have within us. The origins of these subpersonalities are as diverse as they are many.

We have responsible parts that are very concern with how we make a living. We have vulnerabilities that may represent themselves as children, or a child part may embody our playful creative side. We can give voice to our body, our mind, or our soul. Sometimes, silence is the voice of a part that is preverbal, or has been suppressed so long he/she cannot speak.

In Soul Retrieval work, the journey is the recovery of these parts. We loose parts of ourselves because of pain, trauma, judgment, or they are unconscious to us. Whatever the reason, when parts are missing, we are missing a part of us, and we don’t have what they embody available to us.

In addition these parts may hold deep buried emotions. Because certain experiences have been painful to us, we have pushed the feelings/emotions, and thus a part of us, outside of our waking consciousness. There, in the dark corners of our subconscious they reside without our love and support, waiting for the time when we are willing and able to embrace them and look at what they have been holding for us. It is a healing for the part and us when we can welcome them back into our consciousness and look at the beliefs, emotions, and experiences that we have so feared.

Beliefs:

Beliefs are held in the mental body, and we can change our beliefs as we discover the source of our beliefs. Many core beliefs originate with our relationship with Source, but those experiences are unconscious for most of us. What we experience is how the belief is manifested in our personal lives, and in our relationship with society.

Like a trunk of a tree, a core belief will have many branches. A core belief like, “I am not safe” will have many secondary beliefs, such as the world is not safe, or it is not safe to fully love someone. Core beliefs and their many tangents will show up in our personal relationships, our relationship with society, and our relationship with religion or spirituality.

Belief(s) created from one level of our beingness, create experience in our current lives. Those experiences in turn reinforce the underlying belief(s) or create more beliefs. It is a circle. As an example, the belief that the world is unsafe may create the very experiences that you are seeking to avoid. Those experiences in turn reinforce the belief that you are not safe. It is a vicious circle. How do we break it?

One major question is, which came first, the belief or the experience? Did reality bring me the experience to reveal the belief? Or is the belief derived from experience?

Lets say in a previous life, you drown. You don’t consciously remember this experience. However, in this life you don’t like the water, and as a consequence you never develop good swimming skills. Now, when you go to the beach you don’t swim in the lake or ocean. You don’t feel safe in the water.

Perhaps symbolically, the water represents your feelings. Powerful feelings and intense emotional expression are overwhelming for you. You feel as though you are loosing control and are drowning in a sea of emotions. Your personal relationships have taught you that the expression of intense feelings brings disastrous results.

On the spiritual level, perhaps you grew up with a religion that taught a person must subjugate his/her will to Divine Will in order to achieve salvation. This teaching/belief taught you that your feelings, your desires, and thus you, the way you are, are not acceptable to God. Thus reinforcing the ideal that you are not safe.

The above is an example of how a core belief can have/create many secondary beliefs, and how those beliefs can radiate through the personal, collective, and transpersonal aspects of our lives.

It does not serve us to deny that the world seems unsafe. Rather we need to discover the source of those beliefs and why they are manifesting in our experience the way they are. We could begin to see that all this “unsafeness” is a product of our fears and beliefs, and not an inherent attribute of creation itself. That is a hugh difference.

We need to identify our beliefs and feel the emotions surrounding the beliefs. Then we can begin to change the belief and heal the issues involved.

Esoteric Wisdom:

I consider Esoteric Wisdom to be the teachings that the masters and others have brought down throughout the ages. Whether that is spoken in tongues of old, or in challenging works such as Djwhal Khul through Alice Baily, or in channelings by Vywamus through Janet McClure, or Seth through Jane Roberts, it is wisdom and love which is meant to help us understand who and what we are, who God/Father/Mother/Creator is, and the many purposes of creation.

Each, of course, will embrace that which rings most true for them, and reflects what the student of the divine is learning at the time.

to make connections from the many parts

of our waking consciousness to our soul,

to become a fuller conscious being...

aware of our Human/Divine Nature.

I feel the weaving together of these multiple levels: subpersonalities, our waking I, soul, channeling, and dreaming, offer a wonderful opportunity to bring understanding and healing to who we are here and now.

If this work interests you, you can email at <raymond@jetcity.com>

If you live in the Seattle WA area, I am available for personal sessions.

Blessings always. Go forth as the Love & Light that you are.

To read a much expanded version of this go to My Personal - Transpersonal Experience